tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53176172011-09-21T11:52:18.022-04:00"Take only pictures, leave only footprints."Cindynoreply@blogger.comBlogger3141100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-39437489982890875752010-12-24T23:28:00.001-05:002011-03-07T12:40:02.887-05:00

Here I'm sitting in church waiting for midnight mass to start. I'm reminded of the Christmas eves that I have spent here singing with the choir. Two memories came to mind as I was walking in today. One Christmas in which I was so sad and lonely that I started crying while singing silent night. I remember how I felt and how hopeless things seemed for me then. That was a Christmas that wasn't so

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-56503643535781910422010-07-16T21:43:00.001-04:002010-07-30T13:15:18.809-04:00

Did you ever love someone,and know they didn't love you?Did you ever feel like crying,And thought what good would it doDo you look into his eyesAnd say a little prayer?Did you look into his heartAnd wish that you were there?Did you ever say "God I love him"And never let him know?Did you ever need a friendAnd have no place to go?The price you pay is high,If I had a choice between life or deathI

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-1145452973181896422010-06-14T12:35:00.002-04:002010-06-14T12:41:18.360-04:00

Starting this week I become a regular host on the podcast Criticalmasscast! I'm so excited! I guest hosted on an episode a few weeks back and then Greg and Ryan asked me to join them. I'm so excited about it!We get to talk about some Glee and I came up with a cool idea to discuss our favourite movie endings. I already have mine in mind. Looking forward to sharing it. Hope you will all check it

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It's official, I've moved. I am now sharing a condo with Michael. Its so beautiful to wake up each morning with a view of the lake. It just makes me smile to see it. Its amazing! The move went off without a problem and I'm lucky to have so many friends that came to help. We were all moved in in no time. I left a bunch of cleaning supplies at the apartment so that I can go back to clean it before

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-54923175772119597582010-06-04T15:15:00.001-04:002010-06-04T15:15:33.272-04:00

BustedRustyOutsideKnottedEmotionallyNo hope

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Fifth Business explains that its title refers to a character in plays who is not the protagonist, the villain or a romantic interest, but is a pivotal character in that he is necessary to the resolution or meaning of the story.

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The band-aid is off and I'm bleeding all over the place. I knew it was going to happen but I guess I just didn't expect it to happen so soon. I guess it's better now than later because it was starting to become part of me and the skin was starting to heal over it. Later it would have done more damage and hurt more.I suppose there is never a good time to lose something you depend on. I only have

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-89024754768584357192010-02-16T20:58:00.001-05:002010-05-27T21:28:55.606-04:00

I'm standing backstage and watching the dress rehearsal. I spend a lot of time waiting. What a great analogy for my life. I stand here waiting for love to come onstage.I just keep wondering when it will be my turn. When will I be the heroine of the story? I keep getting fooled by the bit players and can't see the hero through them all. I know he's out there somewhere. I know what his character is

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-27304244994617725022009-12-22T18:10:00.003-05:002009-12-22T18:33:12.544-05:00

So my roommate lost his job so that means we can't move in together as planned. I'm not sure what happens now. I guess I wait till this problem sorts itself out. I can't help but worry because I feel like it won't sort itself out and us being roommates was never meant to be. I hope that isn't the case.He told me that everything happens for a reason and things always turn out better than you

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-39352165992475020222009-11-24T21:51:00.002-05:002009-11-24T22:06:51.108-05:00

There is so much going on in my life right now I can't take it all in. I'm trying to catch my breath. Just when I feel like I've finally caught my tail the ground shifts beneath me again.I don't want to lose the opportunity so I'm grabbing it and holding on. I never know how long things will last but I want to make the most of it.I've never been good at risking. I have built such a wall around

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-62298637185042067612009-09-15T14:08:00.002-04:002009-09-15T14:11:10.187-04:00

We are in the midst of what I like to call the new year. When I was still a student September always signified a fresh start. Of course it's been years since I've been a student but I still see September as a chance to start over.This summer didn't really feel like a summer. Admittedly, summer hasn't seemed like summer since I was a student. Once you're an adult summer doesn't hold much allure

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-85736049490052619932009-07-23T21:16:00.004-04:002010-05-27T21:29:40.991-04:00

So this place is a bit of a mess right now. We're in the midst of a civic workers strike that has been going on for a month. The people that get the most publicity out of it are the garbage workers because people are being subjected to temporary garbage dumps in their local parks. However there are people off in the strike that are even more valuable like the city daycare workers.This whole

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-50369798039923227092009-07-02T22:46:00.007-04:002009-07-02T23:19:51.471-04:00

Today is my official four year anniversary of life in the city. Four years ago today I walked off that plane in Pearson airport not knowing what I was walking into. I had no idea that this decision to come here would change my life so irrevocably. I thought two years of working for the Ontario government and I'd be back in Thunder Bay cruising down Lakeshore drive.Well four years and four jobs

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-31389812025738793632009-06-30T23:33:00.007-04:002009-07-23T21:09:45.763-04:00

I can be pretty stubborn when something I feel passionate about is at stake. I remember many moments in my life when I had something I really loved and wanted more than anything but knew deep down inside that it wasn't meant to be and I would lose it.I can still remember how gut wrenching it was in the clarity of that moment in which I knew inexplicably that I could fight with all the energy I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-21878728540114197792009-06-13T09:37:00.003-04:002009-06-13T22:46:21.469-04:00

The things that make me smile these days are small things. Yesterday I had dinner with Auntie Carol in her garden. That is something I don't think we have done since I moved here. Her garden all bright green with imminent summer made me smile.The weather yesterday was comfortably warm with a light breeze and it reminded me of many a summer night back home. It's nice to see summer is actually

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-5718306933535887042009-06-09T21:25:00.002-04:002009-06-09T21:55:50.660-04:00

I picked up a book the last time I was in Pearson airport called "Better Single Than Sorry". It was written by some woman who was on the Bachelor and Bachelorette and didn't marry any of them. I admit I felt pathetic and desperate buying it but I seriously needed to hear advice from someone who knew what it felt like to be like me - the last woman standing.So far it's not helping. Of course I'm

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-4377791758772922182009-06-07T21:39:00.002-04:002009-06-07T22:08:00.425-04:00

I miss Dziadziu. It's been three years since he died and I still miss him. I miss what he represented for our family - stability. He was the pillar on which everyone depended. When he died our entire family just went to pieces. Everyone needed him - Babcia, Uncle Joe, Mom, my sisters, my cousins. Everyone. As soon as he disappeared from the family dynamic things started coming out of the

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-40067622728578748922009-05-17T18:32:00.002-04:002009-05-17T19:04:16.868-04:00

I thought by getting involved in some extra curricular activities I would find what I needed - what I felt was missing from my life. As it turns out I was wrong. I was being so optimistic but none of it is working.I was so excited to be back into theatre and now I see that it was something that was just better left in the past. This group I joined will never be for me what theatre once was in

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-75450828733097913222009-04-29T21:44:00.003-04:002009-04-29T22:05:05.188-04:00

Every so often I come across things I've scribbled in old notebooks or typed hastily into a text file that I saved and forgot about. It's strange that I usually come across these tidbits when I most need inspiration. Here are a few old tidbits....Sometimes it is hard to continue to stand because you are so filled with doubt in your own course that you begin to question your choices. Right now I

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So the play I'm running lights for opened Thursday night. It's been a long week but a successful one. I'm quite enjoying being back involved with theatre. I've realized how much I missed it from my life.Theatre and drama have always held a spot in my heart. I love the sense of community that develops when you take a group of people, that may not otherwise would have crossed paths, and you throw

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-59351190672785281232009-02-11T22:07:00.003-05:002009-02-11T22:51:24.220-05:00

A few weeks back my friends and I at our weekly get together got into a disagreement about the state of my love life. I don't even recall how it started. More than likely I said something stupid to draw attention to myself. I still haven't learned to just keep my mouth shut.The gist of the conversation became how I'm not actively looking for love and that is my problem. I find this to be such

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-47839202752195206072008-12-28T21:18:00.003-05:002008-12-28T21:46:20.180-05:00

As I've gotten older I've taken note about how the things I love about Christmas have changed. As a kid I always loved getting presents - what kid doesn't love getting presents? I loved the Christmas eve tradition of having dinner at my Grandparents house. After dinner the adults would bundle up the kids and we would pile into my Dad's Buick station wagon and my Dad and Uncle would take us to

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-17206414839769555272008-11-11T20:21:00.004-05:002008-11-11T21:10:26.365-05:00

Today was Remembrance day. It's a really important day for me. My Grandfather was a WWII veteran and today I'm always reminded of him and miss him more acutely.Our veterans are given one day a year for us to honour their sacrifice and it's sad to see that so many people don't acknowledge them. Walking to and from the subway today I passed so many people that didn't have a poppy on their coat.I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-1667645237843053522008-10-15T09:42:00.003-04:002008-11-11T20:08:03.575-05:00

"Lots of fire and brimstone but in reality stumped by cuddly, two-foot-high Ewoks." ~ Jamey Heath, NDP communications director, telling a CP reporter doing a tongue-in-cheek arts story that he would cast Harper as a storm trooper in the Star Wars franchise.

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I’d like to say that I can’t believe Stephen Harper was elected again but the truth is I’m not surprised. The only positive thing is that he didn’t get his sought after majority. That should say something to Mr. Harper but I doubt he has given it a second thought. The only reason the Liberals lost seats is because of the tenuous leadership of Mr. Dion. If they had had someone else in power I’m

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-3585550192523496042008-10-05T16:38:00.003-04:002008-10-05T17:54:57.891-04:00

Last night was our 4th annual Corn Maze adventure. This year, Matt, Margie and I had decided it would be fun to go early so that we had enough time to check out the market and the town. I also wanted to get my hands on some of the delectable cinnamon buns there.St. Jacobs has a large Mennonite population and they sell a lot of produce and baked goods at the market. They make the best cinnamon

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-21288470209578132892008-09-02T23:30:00.004-04:002008-09-02T23:58:04.903-04:00

Many years ago my friend Eyrin said something to me over our usual coffee and cheesecake at the coffeehouse night. She said she thought that you were either born to make a difference in the world or that you were born to give birth to someone who would change the world.I thought this was an interesting observation at the time but never really considered it much till recently. Being past the age

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-46621257880482008682008-08-24T19:33:00.004-04:002008-08-24T22:13:51.503-04:00

I've been single for six years now. It's not that I haven't wanted to date or that I haven't had the opportunity I've just ended up broken-hearted. It's a condition I've gotten so used to that I'm more familiar with that feeling than I am with the joy and elation that comes with the beginnings of a new relationship.Recently I've realized that a lot of the relationships that are idealized in

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-56910298018661516212008-08-17T10:07:00.004-04:002008-08-17T10:22:01.740-04:00

Still no news on my employment front. Still waiting. But the extended nature of this problem has led me to make one decision. Well I really had no choice in the matter. I'm not going home for Christmas. This will be the first time in my entire life that I don't spend Christmas with my family. I can't even imagine what it will be like.The other day I had a craving for soft ginger cookies. As I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-23800097048908488782008-08-03T20:15:00.004-04:002008-08-03T20:49:25.207-04:00

One thing that has taken my mind off my life recently is all the discussions of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. The trailer was just released and that has sparked commentary from the people behind the scenes such as director David Yates. I have to say I'm not impressed so far with what I've seen and heard.Firstly Steve Kloves is back as screenwriter which in and of itself doesn't give me

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-77295332418320012792008-08-01T10:43:00.002-04:002008-08-01T11:06:38.294-04:00

The longer this goes on the less ability I have to stay positive. Things keep going wrong. Everything from my health to EI.My friends have been great through all the messes I've had to endure lately but the bottom line is that I'm still alone in this. I've spent the last two days at home - alone. I'm sure this fact alone doesn't help my state of mind but I have nothing else to do. Can't spend

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-31763758395276832392008-07-20T11:38:00.003-04:002008-11-11T20:09:13.158-05:00

So I have been forced to change my life even if I didn't want to. Two weeks ago I learned that I have high blood pressure. This isn't a huge surprise as there is a very strong family history of it and there is a great deal of stress in my life right now. But the problem is that the doctors say that despite the family history I'm still too young to have high blood pressure so now I have to have

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-87772264957378040932008-07-07T19:42:00.002-04:002008-07-07T20:11:32.942-04:00

I've always found that when things in my life I can see good in everyone elses' lives. I get a lot of people who call and have great news for instance one friend is getting married next year and they just bought a house, another friend finally afforded the camera they really, really wanted and a few just had babies.But I do find a lot of people in my life hesitate to tell me their good news

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-41861116000901514712008-07-03T23:08:00.003-04:002008-07-03T23:22:03.579-04:00

Lisa came over on Wednesday. I think she did it so as to make my first day of not going to work easier and less depressing. It was sweet of her. We had a MacGyver-thon. Lisa is the only other person I know who likes MacGyver. It's great having someone to watch it with.We only watch it when we have time to get together. We only just finished the first season yesterday. I anticipate it is going

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-29060629815158225612008-06-24T10:03:00.001-04:002008-11-11T20:12:15.561-05:00

I've never been under the misguided notion that life is fair. I have learned over and over again how unfair it really is. It was probably the first lesson my mother taught me. It's not that I remember the exact moment in which she bestowed this knowledge upon me, I just remember her telling me this since I was old enough to remember.I used to think it was because she liked to be hurtful or even

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-53366568213392869412008-06-22T10:09:00.003-04:002008-06-22T16:01:19.395-04:00

On Friday night Joe, Lisa, Margarita, Pat, Marco, John and Helen participated in the Relay for Life. Relay for life is a non-competitive relay in support of the Canadian Cancer Society. I'd say we were quite successful.It's always a great night to spend with friends. You get quality time and you are doing it for a good cause. In addition to the usual festivities this year Joe formed a band with

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-11765197511149003902008-06-04T14:13:00.002-04:002008-11-11T20:18:07.210-05:00

Gossipping :: GirlsMisplaced :: LifeSpaceship :: Star WarsIgnore :: MeBodily :: HarmTweezers :: pluckGoodnight :: not good-byeCurls :: frizzyFaucet :: drippyRight? :: wrong?

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Gossipping :: GirlsMisplaced :: LifeSpaceship :: Star WarsIgnore :: MeBodily :: HarmTweezers :: pluckGoodnight :: not good-byeCurls :: frizzyFaucet :: drippyRight? :: wrong?

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-46485190157295226532008-05-29T20:16:00.003-04:002008-05-29T20:32:23.278-04:00

When I was a student at Drama camp in my last year before I aged out our teachers had us do journals during the course of the camp. They had never required it of us before but it gave us an interesting way of interacting with them. It allowed them to help us each with our individual achilles heels. Below are excerpts of the advice I was given to help me grow and learn. I read them now and

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-43680188301600434532008-05-29T11:43:00.001-04:002008-05-29T11:45:38.757-04:00

I'm going to miss my tree. Ok, so it's not my tree but it's the first thing I remember seeing when I came here a year ago for my job interview.I sat in the lobby anxiously waiting and stared out the window on that very sunny blue sky day and was enthralled by the grandfatherly tree that stood in front of an old stone building down the street. The tree's canopy overshadowed the large lawn and the

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-34475975640981330122008-05-02T11:35:00.002-04:002008-05-02T11:39:51.751-04:00

This has been a lousy week for me. I found out on Monday that my contract wouldn't be renewed when it expires; leaving me only a couple of months to find a new job. I'm so disenhearted. I love my job. It's everything I ever wanted to do rolled into one wonderful position surrounded by fabulous co-workers. There aren't words to describe how I feel right now. The rug has definitely been pulled

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-78647939386862222552008-04-23T22:41:00.004-04:002008-04-23T22:54:46.617-04:00

Tonight I saw And Then She Found Me which was directed and stars Helen Hunt. It was a fantastic movie. The one problem is it got me thinking that I really don't want to be like her character April. It just made me sad to watch that part. It's a movie so of course the ending is happy but I don't ever want to end up in her position to begin with.Right now I'm really disappointed in someone. I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-75717611035247551962008-03-14T08:28:00.002-04:002008-11-11T20:13:20.554-05:00

To be lovedMake a pie from scratchMake Grandma's chelsea bunsEat at 360See New Zealand, Scotland, Ireland and EnglandSee Poland

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Being the huge Harry Potter fan that I am, naturally, I'm excited that the last book will be made into two movies. My friend Greg and I have been hoping they would do it because they have done nothing but gut the heart out of all the books with the movies they have produced. Lengthening the last one may allow them to finally get it right. I'm not holding my breath on that one though cause they

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-58837180626738326622008-02-27T20:40:00.008-05:002008-02-27T22:45:53.525-05:00

Darren, Rhea, Me and Marija after the performanceTonight I was searching through some old VHS tapes for some old videos. I'm looking for this old video of me in 1993 taken at the closing performance for drama camp. I went through all the ones I had and I couldn't find it. I guess it must still be back home. I'll have to remember to scour the VHS tape drawer when I'm home.It's a video of my

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-70385519666153424942008-02-22T12:24:00.002-05:002008-02-22T12:30:31.698-05:00

When you're a kid you're taught the value of truth. It's impressed upon you how important it is to always tell the truth. You're bombarded with moral tales that illustrate how the kid who tells the lie always loses and gets punished while the kid who is honest is rewarded. Even when you've done something wrong you're supposed to be honest and own up to it. For most kids being honest when you've

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-23476640585336754842008-02-14T17:12:00.002-05:002008-02-14T17:29:28.820-05:00

Well I've looked back at my old Valentine's Day entries and last year I was so hopeful and cheerful. It's different reading it now because I know that about two weeks after that entry the reason for my happy disposition fell apart.He was a great guy and I'm still disappointed that he's gone. I haven't spoken to him since the day he broke my heart. I'm pretty sure I'll never speak to him again,

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-83025155051325437172008-02-12T12:52:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:01:41.426-05:00

Recently I read comments by teachers complaining because of the excess of Education grads without jobs. One person went as far as to suggest that the OCT only licence 66 per cent of the graduates each year. As a fellow teacher I'm quite appalled by their ignorance.I do not deny that there is a shortage of jobs but limiting the number of graduates being licensed is not going to solve the

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-10396936757003616662008-02-11T21:27:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:02:18.636-05:00

I watched A Year in the Life of JK Rowling yesterday and then I watched it with Greg, Auntie Carol and Lisa so they could see it.JK Rowling is someone who has achieved tremendous success but what I admire her for is her ability to persevere. She is proof that if you are determined enough and you believe in yourself you can get yourself out of any rut.She was a single mother on assistance

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-42134406531474454832008-02-06T07:47:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:03:18.539-05:00

Mount Pleasant CemetarySo we have actually been getting snow this winter! It's a MIRACLE! I never thought I'd be able to get pictures like this one, here. The last two years I've lived here there has been hardly any snow to speak of. It's even snowing again today - all day! Yahoo!I love snow! I see no problem with it whatsoever. What is to hate? It's beautiful. It makes everything look clean and

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-37356293763744306612008-01-22T21:15:00.001-05:002008-11-11T20:17:20.917-05:00

I often wish I could change my very nature. So often things happen and I hate myself for who I am because who I am is hopeful and gullible. In certain situations people can let me down numerous times and I still trust them and believe in them. I don't know why I always have to to believe the best of everyone. I hate myself for wanting things I know very clearly and logically are bad for me. I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-74853497333958475102008-01-20T12:03:00.001-05:002008-11-11T20:17:53.065-05:00

Today I noticed that someone wasn't on my friends list on Facebook anymore. My first thought was that they had left Facebook altogether. They had not but they had removed me from their friends list.The thing is it bothered me. It's such a silly thing. I really shouldn't care but on some level it bothered me. It is a rejection of sorts and I guess that is why it bothers me.

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-41076226866526883512008-01-16T22:00:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:03:43.094-05:00

Well if I had to judge that now based on the first weeks of the year I'd say no. For the last four days I've been sick at home. It sucks. I hate being sick. I just want to be back to normal again.Our cabin trip this year got pushed forward to March because of people having too many things going on in January. It looks as though I won't be going now because Grandpa's 90th birthday party is going

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-73678558726422563752007-12-10T21:33:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:04:23.082-05:00

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-15213582463292293602007-12-03T07:57:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:05:50.863-05:00

Kate, Jordan and Joe doing the first script read-throughWere you disappointed by this summer’s crop of movies? Did you ever think that you could do it better if you were just given the chance? This is the challenge my friends and I took up last week-end when we competed in the 24 Hour Toronto Film Challenge.In 24 hours you need to write, film and edit a five minute film. You’re given a challenge

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-82732039150633515432007-11-22T22:21:00.000-05:002007-12-03T07:57:06.686-05:00

A while ago I saw Elizabeth: The Golden Age with Greg. We had talked about seeing it long before it was even released. I think we just made it cause I'm sure it will be pulled from theatres any day now.I found myself relating to Elizabeth. Now of course her and I are nothing alike really. She was a Queen with responsibility resting on her shoulders that most of us could never even imagine. But

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-88738677993291542612007-11-16T08:22:00.001-05:002008-02-14T08:06:38.507-05:00

One of the great features of the internet is having access to web cams that overlook home. I've managed to track down three cameras that show different areas of home. One is atop the CBC building in downtown Fort William. It gives a nice view of the Sleeping Giant and harbour.The second one I found shows the marina. It has about four different views that the image flips between.The last one is

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-69891509328070367542007-11-08T07:48:00.000-05:002007-11-08T08:08:00.840-05:00

First off, this one's been brewing with me for a while, Brian Mulroney and his book. I don't care if the guy writes a book. It's totally his perogative. I will never support him by buying it but he can write one. The thing that gets me angry, is how in the TV interviews he has done to promote the book, he is bashing Pierre Trudeau. All of a sudden his resentment over Meech Lake comes out as

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-46537409237476936852007-10-30T08:21:00.000-04:002007-10-30T08:22:23.909-04:00

Lately I've been depressed. I shouldn't be. My parents were just here visiting and I hadn't seen them in five months. I think it's the longest I've gone without being home. The last two years have had so many things that have popped up that have given reason for going home that I've never really been away for long stretches. This I think is the longest or it will be the longest when I get

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-79065239705394682552007-10-23T06:30:00.002-04:002008-02-14T08:07:25.740-05:00

The letter that Scott wrote to me before he moved away from Tbay to go to University in BC.August 7, 1997Dear Cindy,Well I guess this is goodbye. Like your poem says, "I'm afraid I must remain." Goodbye is such a difficult thing to say, especially to a friend as good as you. I still can't believe that we lived only 3 houses away from each other for an entire decade before becoming friends.

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I had a conversation with a friend today and this was the gist of what I had been telling them. You cannot bury your head in the sand. You have to face problems head on and deal with them. Most people I know can't do it though."We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the

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Today I found an email that was buried in my bulk mail box. It was from a friend of mine who recently had a baby. He was sending me photos of his brand new daughter. She's beautiful. He's so proud and I'm so happy for him. He has found all the things he ever wanted.I look around and I see everyone around me living the life they wanted. All of them are happy and I'm still not. I keep

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-63113799451469967032007-10-02T07:25:00.000-04:002007-10-02T19:40:57.890-04:00

The MonarchI know I've been kind of quiet lately. I guess I didn't feel like what is going on in my life at the moment would be all that interesting to anyone. I also didn't have a passionate rant to go off on either. Now it's been almost a month and I feel like I should write something, anything.Let's see...a couple of weeks ago I spent the day with my Aunt and Uncle. They took me out on their

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-38122765290220299182007-09-14T08:12:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:17:51.381-04:00

I got the news a couple of days ago that my apartment building is now has historic building designation. I'm absolutely elated! This means they cannot knock it down to build ugly row housing. It's not completely safe from redevelopment but it's going to be pretty hard to get around the designation.Originally, only the other block of apartments in the complex were going to receive historic

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-572318246858315622007-09-06T13:00:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:06:16.042-04:00

Karen and I on her 20th birthdayI noticed that this year marked the 10 year anniversary of my friends and I burying our time capsule. It's hard to believe we've reached the half-way mark. We were supposed to dig it up together in twenty years from the day we buried it. I even put a countdown on my web page to keep track.When I think about where I was in my life 10 years ago it is like night and

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-34981289336512437312007-08-27T20:35:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:07:13.195-04:00

(Left: The gang on the deck as the ship leaves Vancouver)In June 2006 I sent an email out to my friends. I pointed out the fact that we would all be turning 30 in 2007 and that I thought this deserved to be celebrated. I gave a few suggestions for places we could go and then waited to see if anyone was interested.I honestly didn't believe that I would get many people who were interested. I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-16667572257597111992007-08-16T13:02:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:06:56.499-04:00

So I'm back after my Alaskan adventure. I thought I'd be really depressed when it was over but I'm not.  I had been looking forward to it for such a long time that I was sure the aftermath would be sad cause it was over.  What I've realized is that my life is so full of other things and so many wonderful people I don't have time to be sad that my amazing vacation is over.   The trip was

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-76073300108625638462007-07-21T01:19:00.000-04:002007-07-21T01:52:31.264-04:00

So it is now 1:30am in the morning and I have Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows sitting on the desk beside me. I haven't even opened it yet. I think I may go to bed and start reading in the morning. Part of me thinks that I could just keep it aside longer just to keep it from ending. It's kind of silly but I suppose that most people don't want good things to end.I was on

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-61039197225010114492007-07-19T15:29:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:07:30.367-04:00

There is a day and a half left before Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows is released.  Greg and I have anxiously awaited this book for two years.  We have discussed the theories and plot points at length and we each have our own ideas of how it will end.   This series of books has been part of my life since I was 22 and a fourth year University student.  I was working at Chapters when the

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Throughout reading the Harry Potter series I have always been intrigued by the character of Severus Snape. JK Rowling has revealed very little about him when you compare it to how much we know about other characters. Snape is still shrouded in mystery which makes his character a great source of debate. I have always believed Snape to really be on Dumbledore's side. Snape has committed so

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-6661465186205186152007-07-04T21:31:00.000-04:002007-07-04T22:04:06.854-04:00

What do you fear?Important choices are never easy. Would you fight for what you value most? Would you oppose the injustice of a majority? Would you sacrifice yourself for others? The past is not filled with heroes, gods, and villains. It is filled with people like you, for whom these choices were no less difficult, their consequences no less severe, for themselves, and for others.This is

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-17967753677909543552007-07-04T14:36:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:08:30.795-04:00

So here I am my last day in the internship program. Two years ago today I started a new chapter of my life. Again, two years later, I am starting another new chapter. I start my new job tomorrow as a web assistant.So what have I learned in two years? Hmm where should I begin.1. Everything happens for a reason - even when it seems like it is the worst possible thing that could ever happen to

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-37545869612485957872007-07-01T00:08:00.000-04:002007-07-01T00:28:31.669-04:00

It probably seems that all I do is contemplate life. But at this stage of my life it seems like little else could be expected. It's hard not to contemplate the big choices and big milestones when you're surrounded by people who are living them.I have very few single friends now at this point. Most of them are married and some of them have kids or are currently expecting. The kid thing is

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-90601634408742435662007-06-21T09:52:00.000-04:002007-06-21T09:58:36.625-04:00

Yesterday I was informed that there is a job being posted back in my hometown that is perfect for me. It's a full-time, permanent position with a stable company.Why is it that these things always come up when I'm not really in a position to follow through on them? Two years ago when I was in absolute hell in my minimum-wage job I would have loved an opportunity like this! Two years ago all I

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-28086709655556197702007-06-15T10:09:00.000-04:002007-06-15T10:14:51.845-04:00

What American accent do you have? (Best version so far)CanadianPeople from outside North America probably think you're from the States, but over here we wouldn't make such a mistake. Click Here to Take This QuizBrought to you by YouThink.com quizzes and personality tests.Well thank GOD for that because I wouldn't want anyone thinking I'm a Yankee. Hee hee. Kidding of course. I still don't think

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-14583694054034371422007-06-06T10:22:00.000-04:002007-06-06T10:36:45.546-04:00

So I managed to get myself another contract here so I'll be staying a little longer. Actually I think it was never really a choice. I don't see myself going back right now.When I was 18 and in my last year of Summer Drama Camp the theme of our final show was 'changes'. Most of the skits we did centered around events that cause change or how change affects people. The group was usually split

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-63382167518944902172007-05-18T11:42:00.002-04:002008-03-14T08:27:24.074-04:00

This week I've realized that there are a lot of things in life that act as mirrors. Children are mirrors for their parents and books, movies and tv shows can be mirrors to everyone of other human experience.Every day I become more conscious of the parts of me that resemble my mother or my father. Overall in personality I'm more more like my Dad but I definitely share many traits with my Mom. I

Cindynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-81900095745072685992007-05-01T20:08:00.001-04:002007-09-14T08:08:51.859-04:00

You scored as Izzie Stevens. You are the underdog, the one that has to work the hardest to reach your goals. You are liked by all, but have a tendancy to be emotional. You expect your friends and lovers to be loyal to you. You seek acceptance from others.Meredith Grey88%Izzie Stevens88%George O'Malley63%Derek Sheherd50%Alex Karev25%Preston Burke25%Cristina Yang25%Miranda Bailey0%Grey's

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-21100423895810078572007-04-18T13:03:00.000-04:002007-04-18T13:37:12.547-04:00

I need to write but I'm not sure where to start. That school shooting in Virginia has really affected me. I don't know anyone that was involved in it but I can't shake it from my consciousness.Maybe it's the teacher in me but events like this really get to me. There is no understanding something as senseless as this.You read all the stories and in all honesty I don't know what anyone could

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Which Hogwarts house will you be sorted into?

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My morning troll around the internet uncovered a couple of interesting tidbits. The first of which is http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20016233,00.html an article on them possibly making a musical of the Goonies. Anyone who knows me knows I do like musicals, however, this is the most ridiculous idea anyone has EVER conceived! The Goonies is one of those classic movies that has somehow managed

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-66194987061465554472007-03-28T12:34:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:09:53.765-04:00

"Harry has been burdened with a dark, dangerous and seemingly impossible task: that of locating and destroying Voldemort's remaining Horcruxes. Never has Harry felt so alone, or faced a future so full of shadows. But Harry must somehow find within himself the strength to complete the task he has been given. He must leave the warmth, safety and companionship of the Burrow and follow without

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-15574607801507095132007-03-27T08:30:00.000-04:002007-09-14T08:12:11.944-04:00

So last night I attended a meeting for the tenants of my apartment complex. The owner of our complex has enlisted a developer to explore options for making their 'underperforming' property more lucrative. The whole thing makes me spitting mad. I love my apartment it's absolutely perfect. The building was built in 1937 and it is so immaculately kept and has so much character. It is 'Colonial

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-24982417292267259892007-03-26T12:30:00.000-04:002007-03-26T12:31:34.672-04:00

Groovy :: Disco Jealousy :: Green Watching :: TV Kenny :: South Park Games :: Board variety? Bread :: crumbs City :: lights Stems :: broccoli Birds :: chirping Listener :: talker

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***You Communicate Like a Woman*** (I guess that's good cause I am one!)You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely.You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice. Communication is how you connect with people.You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?http://www.blogthings.com/

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(Left: Doug takes a break on the couch before it's loaded into the truck.)I returned home this week to check up on my youngest sister and my Grandmother. My parents are away in New Zealand, soon to return. While I was home my friends Karen and Justin moved into their new house. It's such an exciting event and I was thrilled to be part of it.(Right: The new backyard complete with a crop circle

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-18449349285175726742007-03-18T23:07:00.002-04:002008-03-14T08:19:46.481-04:00

I wasn't as excited as I normally am to come home this week. When I had booked my flight home I had all these plans for things that I was going to do here. Long before I left to come here those plans fell apart. It took the wind out of me. It wasn't my main reason for coming here but it was very important to me.Friday morning when I was in my Mom's car driving to pick up my Grandmother it was a

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-30730323886202187142007-03-14T19:45:00.000-04:002007-03-14T19:49:52.223-04:00

“One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.” ~ Unknown

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Contribution :: to society Ryan :: Moore Minimal :: not enough Cleansed :: church Centered :: self Arrow :: head Beyond :: seeing Execute :: to put into action Intuition :: Jewel Apology :: never comes

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February 4 - Fleetwood Mac's Grammy-winning album Rumours is released. February 28 - Canadian passenger rail services are amalgamated into VIA Rail. March 15 - The television show Three's Company debuts on ABC.April 7 - The Toronto Blue Jays play their first game, defeating the Chicago White Sox. May 7 - Pierre Elliot Trudeau does a pirouette behind the back of Elizabeth II of the United Kingdom.

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So only 10 more days before I'm home for four. I'm not as excited about it as I was three weeks ago. Three weeks ago I had a lot more to look forward to. Even though I feel like I've dealt with my disappointment well, it still hurts to think about it.I've come to realize that accepting things doesn't mean that they stop hurting you. It just means that the pain doesn't affect your day to day

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-50150069117269509212007-02-27T12:47:00.000-05:002007-02-27T13:29:30.044-05:00

"Where we love is home. Home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts." ~Oliver Wendell HolmesLately I've had many of my friends make the comment that I'm a big city girl now. Hearing this from more than one person I have to say that it really hurts me. I do not for one second believe that I have forgotten where I come from.I'm not sure if my friends meant to imply that I had forgotten what

Cindynoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-12136735653383669932007-02-26T11:30:00.000-05:002007-02-26T12:40:57.834-05:00

I would say that I'm afraid to love but that would be a lie. If I was afraid to love I think I would run from relationships rather than jump in head first. Part of me wonders if part of the reason I go charging in is simply to prove inner voice right. I can run in their prove that the man isn't interested me and never was and then I can leave saying "See I was right." I suppose that is fear

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-75906518600889900372007-02-22T12:36:00.000-05:002007-02-22T13:18:55.436-05:00

The key to surviving is to put one foot in front of the other and keep your head up. Depending on what you've been through this can vary in difficulty. I'm putting one foot in front of the other. I'm concentrating on the plans for my annual Oscar party instead.I look forward to throwing this party every year. It's always a lot of fun. We all make our Oscar picks prior to the ceremony. I run a

Cindynoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-35708992539669326862007-02-21T13:02:00.000-05:002007-02-21T14:30:00.594-05:00

"The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core strength within you that survives all hurt." ~UnknownThe day started with the recognition of spring approaching. The air is mild and the snow is half-melted and crunchy. The sun was glowing red on the faces of all the high-rises as I walked down Wellesley to work. It's a new day and it feels like a new

Cindynoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5317617.post-51438376506090625542007-02-20T08:31:00.000-05:002007-02-20T08:53:21.755-05:00

I got my heart broken last night. The problem is I don't think I have the right to be upset. He never made me any promises. He never made any moves. We were not dating. What happened last night was that I lost a relationship opportunity. One that I had invested too much of my heart in.I'm always diving heart first into things. I feel like such a fool for allowing myself to get so hopeful

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Almost two years ago I came to Toronto. I openly admit now that when I came here I was running away. I was running away from my awful job and evil boss, my friends, my parents and a man who would never love me.When I left I had a love/hate relationship with my hometown. I loved it for it's beauty and simplicity but hated it for it's lack of opportunity. Two years later I can say I have

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The best thing :: is to love and be loved in return Hold :: on Rapture :: isn't that a book title? Cover :: Girl Restrictive :: Baker :: persians Author :: original Pill :: BC Months :: years Valentine’s Day :: getting better

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I loathe Valentine's Day. This should be no surprise to anyone who knows me or has read previous Valentine's Day entries. I willinging admit it is because it depresses me because it serves only to remind me and other singles that we are without love in our lives.It should rightly be called Singles Identification Day, as one of my co-worker's suggested. I can just imagine all you happily paired

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"Love me without fear / Trust me without questioning / Need me without demanding / Want me without restrictions / Accept me without change / Desire me without inhibitions." - Dick Sutphen

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